My Eyes Are Open

Here I am at the beginning, not sure on how to proceed.

I've never blogged before. Not really anyways. I had xanga back in the day, but I would like to belived that my thoughts and opinions have matured since then. Matured from the pointless ramblings of a fourteen year old girl into the profound thoughts of the women I am today. We'll see.

"Everybody's waiting
Everybody's watching
Even when you're sleeping
Keep your eyes open

A tricky thing
As yesterday we were just children
Playing soldiers
Just pretending
Dreaming dreams with happy endings
In backyards, winning battles with our wooden swords
But now we've stepped into a cruel world
Where everybody stands to keep score

Keep your eyes open

Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open

So here you are, two steps ahead and staying on guard
Every lesson forms a new scar
They never thought you'd make it this far
But turn around, they've surrounded you
It's a showdown, and nobody comes to save you now
But you've got something they don't
Yeah you've got something they don't
You've just gotta keep your eyes open

Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open

Keep your feet ready
Heartbeat steady
Keep your eyes open
Keep your aim locked
The night goes dark
Keep your eyes open

Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping

Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open"
-Taylor Swift

If you weren't able to figure it out, this song is where I got the idea for my blog's title.

Sometimes it just feels like everyone's waiting for me to give up, to just breakdown. Life is no longer the fairytale we imagined it would be. It's harder than we imagined. It's full of anger, despair, jealousy, etc. But there is good, there is happiness, and love. But if my eyes are closed to what surrounds me I'll never find anything.

I just need to keep my eyes open. Open to opportunities. Opportunies in career, family, friendships, love, and I have to be willing to fight for them. 

I don't think I was ready to fight  before. I'm ready now.